Self-discipline

Hi everyone how are you? I hope things been well & good.

Right now I am violation with a depressing on "Self-discipline"

It is already sound not so good.. & I am stress fully not happy with this recent habits.

I've slept more than 8hours yet I still feel sleepy & tiredness.

When I feel sleepy I'll become tired & when I'm tired I can't focus when I can't focus I failed to do anything in proper.

I really don't like this recent behavior nor habits of mine...

I kills time with sleeping, day time dreaming, thinking & again more sleeps~~~

I feel I am allot more productive than this way...

I tried to keep myself calm from all the misery & complicated of life's that I'm facing..

I always...tell my own self that I really MUST be grateful for what I have now.

My responsible, understanding, caring parents, a good listener sister & friends that always cared.

Right now at this state I am too disappointed with myself.

I use to have a bigger vision & mission..

I look life as a bigger picture & I always wanted the finest & big things in life.

It's sounds very inspiring yet I am now the demotivated Qeera.

It's scared to starting over.. another path of life..

the continuous after you finished your study & already got your scroll.

I am not complaining instead I'm so confused.. very :-(

I can't really decide to start of my career in which organization, department or positions.

I'm still lost but this lost has made me to become a lazy person..

I am not comfortable now so not.. but I want to get back on the track with the visionary Qeera right all again~

No any words can describe how sad I am now.

I'm praying to god to give me ways and show me the righteous path so that one day I'll be a successful person. With god willing..