Recovery..

You never know will never know what I've been through..
I'm not the one I used to be..
and I miss the one I'm used to be..
Where is the girl that always smile..
and think everything's gonna be alright..

When he left I thought I'll pull through..
I really want to pull through..
By times its eating me..
I lost half of my strength..

Where has my spirit has gone?
dear god, I miss myself :(
I felt I lost in my own world..
Everyday seems empty..

I'm grateful to have caring & loving..
family & friends..
It's hurt me so bad when..
they don't want to see me sad..
and I don't want to make anyone worry about me..
they gave and support me the very best..
and I appreciate it so much..
It's so hurt when deep down inside..
I'm still weak.. I'm still in the process..
It's a process of me finding and putting..
myself all back together in 1 piece..

I really hope by times it heal..
It's an unknown and I don't even know how to say it..
Maybe by times it's heal..InsyaAllah..
I just keep on praying..
and hope everything's back to normal..
Because when I lost him..
I lost my objectives of life's
I really felt life's is too short..
I'm scared.. but this is life's
Nothing last forever..

My 21st Birthday :)

UNDEFINABLE THANKS BELOVED FAMILY & SWEET FRIENDS !! <3

Happiness

My Life full with challenged and thrilled..
But It's all happen with a good reason..
The one and only above knows it all..
Dear god, Allah s.w.t..
Only to you I can voice out..
and Only to you I pray for happiness...
I hope you'll give me extra strength..
And yes I'm weak.. but I never give up..
I always pray to you dear Allah..
InsyaAllah and Amin !! You hear all my voice out.

When comes to certain occassion...

To start over is scary... How do I start over coz
when you're gone and you took half of me with you,
I never imagine it's you dat gonna leave me..
you always leave me.. kan..?
But this time you leave me forever mok.. sedih..
Now I know why god don't want me to be so closed with you..
He loves you more mok..

Everyday I miss you.. I miss you so much

Thanks mok.. Whatever you've start you finish it..
and When comes to certain ocassion it's cause me to..
Breakdown and cry

"Mok.. bila nak balik JB? Mok.. bila nk habis belajar? Nanti habis belajar balik kita kahwin k mok.. Mok.. Aku happy sgt dpt borak dgn kau tak ada la aku saja ckp je aku happy sgt Mok.."

ANDEK MD AFHAM (9/8/1987-17/4/2010)
Al-fatihah..

Nobody knows

Nobody knows
Nobody knows but me
That I sometimes cry
If I could pretend that I'm asleep
When my tears start to fall
I peek out from behind these walls
I think nobody knows
Nobody knows no

Nobody likes
Nobody likes to lose their inner voice
The one I used to hear before my life
Made a choice
But I think nobody knows
No no
Nobody knows
No

Baby
Oh the secret's safe with me
There's nowhere else in the world that I could ever be
And baby don't it feel like I'm all alone
Who's gonna be there after the last angel has flown
And I've lost my way back home
I think nobody knows no
I said nobody knows
Nobody cares

It's win or lose not how you play the game
And the road to darkness has a way
Of always knowing my name
But I think nobody knows
No no
Nobody knows no no no no

Baby
Oh the secret's safe with me
There's nowhere else in the world that I could ever be
And baby don't it feel like I'm all alone
Who's gonna be there after the last angel has flown
And I've lost my way back home
And oh no no no no
Nobody knows
No no no no no no

Tomorrow I'll be there my friend
I'll wake up and start all over again
When everybody else is gone
No no no

Nobody knows
Nobody knows the rhythm of my heart
The way I do when I'm lying in the dark
And the world is asleep
I think nobody knows
Nobody knows
Nobody knows but me
Me